tag:milbyarden.blog.co.uk,2009-11-10:/MokoFeed2009-11-10T04:58:30+01:00tag:milbyarden.blog.co.uk,2006-10-14:/2006/10/14/saturday_bets~1220157/MilbyArden2006-10-14T12:29:39+02:002006-10-14T12:29:39+02:00 <p>Raith v MORTON<br> 1.65<br> SCUNTHORPE v Brighton<br> 1.60<br> Palace v CARDIFF<br> 2.75<br> WOLVES v Colchester<br> 1.73<br> BURNLEY v Hull<br> 1.65<br> MAN CITY v Sheffield Utd<br> 1.70<br> PORTSMOUTH v West Ham<br> 1.90<br> VILLA v Spurs<br> 2.10<br> Wigan v MAN UNITED<br> 1.50<br> ARSENAL v Watford<br> 1.15<br> LIVERPOOL v Blackburn<br> 1.45<br> Reading v CHELSEA<br> 1.45<br> Dundee v CELTIC<br> 1.25<br> RANGERS v Inverness<br> 1.25<br> Getafe v REAL MADRID<br> 1.65<br> Huelva v ATHLETICO MADRID<br> 1.40<br> Sampdoria v AC MILAN<br> 1.73<br> Bochum v WERDER BREMEN<br> 1.65<br> BAYERN MUNICH v Hertha Berlin<br> 1.40<br> Sparta v AZ<br> 1.40<br> AJAX V FC Groningen<br> 1.40<br> LYON v St. Etienne<br> 1.30</p> <p>Of these, I will trade on the Villa, United, Celtic, Arsenal, Milan, Lyon and Werder games. I have backed all of these initially, so with an early goal, I'll lock in profit.</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://milbyarden.blog.co.uk/2006/10/14/saturday_bets~1220157/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:milbyarden.blog.co.uk,2006-07-16:/2006/07/16/good_morning~962711/MilbyArden2006-07-16T08:10:11+02:002006-07-16T08:10:11+02:00 <p>This morning, I will watch Schumacher.</p> <p>I am reading Belle de Jour. I am undecided. Is it a fake? I hope so. I find it a little disturbing.</p> <p>I am also pondering the next Sunderland manager. O'leary? </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://milbyarden.blog.co.uk/2006/07/16/good_morning~962711/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:milbyarden.blog.co.uk,2006-03-04:/2006/03/04/my_current_bets~611665/MilbyArden2006-03-04T11:52:51+01:002006-03-04T11:52:51+01:00 <p>Market Selection Type Bet ID Bet<br> placed Odds<br> req. Stake<br> (£) Avg. odds<br> matched Date<br> matched </p> <p> O .Bouts 04 March / Calzaghe v Lacy / Match Odds J. Calzaghe Back 2038571767 04-Mar-06<br> 10:47 2.44 14.00 2.44 04-Mar-06 10:47 </p> <p> O Fixtures 04 March / Hibernian v Dundee Utd / Match Odds Hibernian Back 2038568432 04-Mar-06<br> 10:46 1.61 2.00 1.61 04-Mar-06 10:46 </p> <p> O Fixtures 04 March / Hibernian v Dundee Utd / Match Odds Hibernian Back 2038568014 04-Mar-06<br> 10:45 1.61 10.00 1.61 04-Mar-06 10:45 </p> <p> O Fixtures 04 March / Hibernian v Dundee Utd / Match Odds Hibernian Back 2038565992 04-Mar-06<br> 10:45 1.61 22.49 1.61 04-Mar-06 10:45 </p> <p> O Fixtures 04 March / Middlesbrough v Birmingham / Match Odds Middlesbrough Back 2038563858 04-Mar-06<br> 10:44 1.98 21.00 1.98 04-Mar-06 10:44 </p> <p> O Fixtures 04 March / C Palace v Leeds / Match Odds C Palace Back 2038552043 04-Mar-06<br> 10:37 2.16 18.00 2.16 04-Mar-06 10:37 </p> <p> O Fixtures 04 March / Millwall v Luton / Match Odds Luton Back 2038550192 04-Mar-06<br> 10:36 2.72 12.00 2.72 04-Mar-06 10:36 </p> <p> O Fixtures 04 March / Watford v Derby / Match Odds Watford Back 2038549397 04-Mar-06<br> 10:36 1.59 35.00 1.59 04-Mar-06 10:36 </p> <p> O Fixtures 04 March / West Brom v Chelsea / Match Odds Chelsea Back 2038533636 04-Mar-06<br> 10:27 1.56 36.00 1.56 04-Mar-06 10:27 </p> <p> O Fixtures 04 March / Sochaux v Bordeaux / Match Odds Bordeaux Back 2038520460 04-Mar-06<br> 10:19 3 10.00 3 04-Mar-06 10:19 </p> <p> O Fixtures 04 March / Hannover v Schalke / Match Odds Schalke Back 2038517346 04-Mar-06<br> 10:18 2.64 13.00 2.64 04-Mar-06 10:18 </p> <p> O Fixtures 04 March / B Munich v Hamburg / Match Odds B Munich Back 2038516560 04-Mar-06<br> 10:17 1.69 30.00 1.69 04-Mar-06 10:17 </p> <p> O Fixtures 04 March / Sampdoria v Juventus / Match Odds Juventus Back 2036624697 03-Mar-06<br> 14:48 2.24 17.00 2.24 03-Mar-06 14:48 </p> <p> O Fixtures 04 March / Crawley Town v Accrington S / Match Odds Accrington S Back 2036149704 03-Mar-06<br> 12:42 1.58 35.00 1.58 03-Mar-06 12:42 </p> <p> O Group B / Ford Championship / Winner P. Mickelson Back 2035229644 02-Mar-06<br> 21:50 6.4 2.00 6.4 02-Mar-06 21:50 </p> <p> O Group B / Ford Championship / Winner P. Mickelson Back 2035229016 02-Mar-06<br> 21:50 6.6 4.26 6.61 02-Mar-06 21:50 </p> <p> O Fixtures 04 March / Cardiff v Sheff Wed / Match Odds Cardiff Back 2034091633 02-Mar-06<br> 13:10 1.68 30.00 1.68 02-Mar-06 13:10 </p> <p> O Fixtures 04 March / Burnley v Reading / Match Odds Reading Back 2034089763 02-Mar-06<br> 13:09 1.88 23.00 1.88 02-Mar-06 13:09 </p> <p> O Fixtures 04 March / Celtic v Aberdeen / Match Odds Aberdeen Back 2034085820 02-Mar-06<br> 13:06 14.5 2.00 14.5 02-Mar-06 13:06 </p> <p> O Fixtures 04 March / Celtic v Aberdeen / Match Odds The Draw Back 2034085136 02-Mar-06<br> 13:05 6.4 2.00 6.4 02-Mar-06 13:05 </p> <p> O Fixtures 04 March / Celtic v Aberdeen / Match Odds Aberdeen Back 2034084556 02-Mar-06<br> 13:05 14.5 3.00 14.5 02-Mar-06 13:05 </p> <p> O Fixtures 04 March / Celtic v Aberdeen / Match Odds The Draw Back 2034084073 02-Mar-06<br> 13:04 6.4 5.00 6.45 02-Mar-06 13:04 </p> <p> O Fixtures 04 March / Real Madrid v Atl Madrid / Match Odds Atl Madrid Back 2034049948 02-Mar-06<br> 12:38 4.6 4.00 4.6 02-Mar-06 12:38 </p> <p> O Fixtures 04 March / Real Madrid v Atl Madrid / Match Odds Atl Madrid Back 2033490482 01-Mar-06<br> 23:07 4.6 6.00 4.6 01-Mar-06 23:07 </p> <p> O Group B / Ford Championship / Winner D. Toms Back 2032098123 01-Mar-06<br> 11:49 22 3.00 22 01-Mar-06 11:49 </p> <p> O Group B / Ford Championship / Winner A. Cabrera Back 2032097514 01-Mar-06<br> 11:48 65 2.00 65 01-Mar-06 11:48 </p> <p> O Group B / Ford Championship / Winner T. Woods Back 2032096542 01-Mar-06<br> 11:47 5.2 2.00 5.2 01-Mar-06 11:47 </p> <p> O Group B / Ford Championship / Winner T. Woods Back 2032096236 01-Mar-06<br> 11:47 5.2 5.00 5.2 01-Mar-06 11:47 </p> <p> O India v England / Test Series / Series Winner India Back 2030196564 28-Feb-06<br> 11:21 1.4 50.00 1.4 28-Feb-06 11:21 </p> <p> O Specials / Next Newc Manager M. O Neill Back 2023315991 25-Feb-06<br> 10:19 2 20.00 2 25-Feb-06 10:19 </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://milbyarden.blog.co.uk/2006/03/04/my_current_bets~611665/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:milbyarden.blog.co.uk,2006-03-03:/2006/03/03/11_women_i_want_to_screw~609164/MilbyArden2006-03-03T13:01:53+01:002006-03-03T13:01:53+01:00 <p>This morning, I saw 11 women I wanted to sleep with. None on the platform, though. It was cold, but my hands didn't hurt because I had my special gloves on. The train was early, and I got a seat with a table. I was sitting opposite a man with a nice laptop, but a dreadful shirt and tie. I wanted his computer, but not his clothes. The first woman was from Manchester. She was plain, but looked like a trier. I noticed her admiring me. And then, as we roll into Euston, the numbers rack up: 3 slutty looking blondes on the concourse; a well-built black girl on the tube... and then Pimlico - over vauxhall bridge road, lurching towards the grid, and the art school girls never let me down... BINGO! BINGO! BINGO! And now, I'm rolling down, past the Morpeth, nod to the soviet bird, washing the step, and out onto Millbank and over in one! Good luck today, it seems. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://milbyarden.blog.co.uk/2006/03/03/11_women_i_want_to_screw~609164/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:milbyarden.blog.co.uk,2006-02-17:/2006/02/18/he_took_up_his_glass_and_sniffed_at_it_t~571473/MilbyArden2006-02-18T00:27:44+01:002006-02-18T00:27:44+01:00 <p>it had become the element he swam in. It was his life, his death, and his resurrection....</p> <p>heh </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://milbyarden.blog.co.uk/2006/02/18/he_took_up_his_glass_and_sniffed_at_it_t~571473/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:milbyarden.blog.co.uk,2006-01-08:/2006/01/08/liberal_democrat_leader~453356/MilbyArden2006-01-08T23:15:39+01:002006-01-08T23:15:39+01:00 <p>I don't think Ming will win.... but he may. When the others declare (and I expect Simon Hughes and Mark Oaten) then Campbell must drift from 1.5 -ish, the present price, which will mean excellent trading opportunities, even if Campbell does go on to win. So - current position is:</p> <p>Market Selection Type Bet ID Bet<br> placed Odds<br> req. Stake<br> (£) Avg. odds<br> matched Date<br> matched </p> <p> O UK / Next Lib Dem Leader David Laws Back 1914159521 08-Jan-06<br> 21:12 44 2.00 45.99 08-Jan-06 21:12 </p> <p> O UK / Next Lib Dem Leader Edward Davey Back 1914159330 08-Jan-06<br> 21:12 55 2.00 55 08-Jan-06 21:12 </p> <p> O UK / Next Lib Dem Leader Mark Oaten Back 1914156065 08-Jan-06<br> 21:10 8.8 9.00 8.84 08-Jan-06 21:10 </p> <p> O UK / Next Lib Dem Leader Simon Hughes Back 1914154956 08-Jan-06<br> 21:09 5.7 10.00 5.75 08-Jan-06 21:09 </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://milbyarden.blog.co.uk/2006/01/08/liberal_democrat_leader~453356/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:milbyarden.blog.co.uk,2006-01-08:/2006/01/08/bets~450876/MilbyArden2006-01-08T10:42:46+01:002006-01-08T10:42:46+01:00 <p>Acca @ coral</p> <p>Celtic to win Clyde v Celtic (1.072)<br> Fulham to win Fulham v Leyton Orient (1.223)<br> Sunderland to win Sunderland v Northwich (1.20)<br> Man Utd to win Burton v Man Utd (1.072)<br> Tottenham to win Leicester v Tottenham (1.445)<br> Valencia to win Atletico Madrid v Valencia (2.25)<br> Inter to win Siena v Inter (1.572)<br> AC Milan to win AC Milan v Parma (1.20) </p> <p>is about 10/1</p> <p>My singles are:</p> <p> Fixtures 08 January / Leicester v Tottenham / Match Odds Tottenham Back 1913021218 08-Jan-06<br> 09:34 1.57 40.00 1.57 08-Jan-06 09:34 </p> <p> O Fixtures 08 January / Siena v Inter / Match Odds Inter Back 1913019928 08-Jan-06<br> 09:32 1.58 40.00 1.58 08-Jan-06 09:32 </p> <p>And I think Valencia will do it, but I'll make a decision on that later in the day.</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://milbyarden.blog.co.uk/2006/01/08/bets~450876/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:milbyarden.blog.co.uk,2006-01-07:/2006/01/07/not_bad_well_done_nuneaton~449724/MilbyArden2006-01-07T21:06:13+01:002006-01-07T21:06:13+01:00 <p>hehehe </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://milbyarden.blog.co.uk/2006/01/07/not_bad_well_done_nuneaton~449724/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:milbyarden.blog.co.uk,2006-01-07:/2006/01/07/final_bets~448007/MilbyArden2006-01-07T11:05:35+01:002006-01-07T11:05:35+01:00 <p>Market Selection Type Bet ID Bet<br> placed Odds<br> req. Stake<br> (£) Avg. odds<br> matched Date<br> matched </p> <p> O Fixtures 07 January / Nuneaton v Middlesbrough / Match Odds Nuneaton Back 1910260420 07-Jan-06<br> 10:03 18.5 5.00 18.5 07-Jan-06 10:03 </p> <p> O Fixtures 07 January / Stockport v Brentford / Match Odds Brentford Back 1910258948 07-Jan-06<br> 10:02 1.87 30.00 1.87 07-Jan-06 10:02 </p> <p> O Fixtures 07 January / Torquay v Birmingham / Match Odds Birmingham Back 1910257040 07-Jan-06<br> 10:01 1.47 20.00 1.47 07-Jan-06 10:01 </p> <p> O Fixtures 07 January / Luton v Liverpool / Match Odds Liverpool Back 1910255757 07-Jan-06<br> 10:01 1.42 20.00 1.42 07-Jan-06 10:01 </p> <p> O Fixtures 07 January / Hull v Aston Villa / Match Odds Aston Villa Back 1910253548 07-Jan-06<br> 10:00 1.77 20.00 1.77 07-Jan-06 10:00 </p> <p> O Fixtures 07 January / Espanyol v Barcelona / Match Odds Barcelona Back 1910252577 07-Jan-06<br> 09:59 1.47 40.00 1.47 07-Jan-06 09:59 </p> <p> O Fixtures 07 January / Palermo v Juventus / Match Odds Juventus Back 1910251113 07-Jan-06<br> 09:58 1.76 30.00 1.76 07-Jan-06 </p> <p>Nuneaton is a silly bet, but I can't help it. It will be another 30 years before they are in the 3rd round again. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://milbyarden.blog.co.uk/2006/01/07/final_bets~448007/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:milbyarden.blog.co.uk,2006-01-07:/2006/01/07/bets~447980/MilbyArden2006-01-07T10:50:50+01:002006-01-07T10:50:50+01:00 <p>Looking at the singles, but:</p> <p>Event info: Blackburn v Queen's Park Rangers<br> FA Cup Matches<br> 15:00 07/01/2006<br> Market: Win/Draw/Win<br> Selection: Blackburn @ 1.40 Not Settled To Win </p> <p>Event info: Millwall v Everton<br> FA Cup Matches<br> 15:00 07/01/2006<br> Market: Win/Draw/Win<br> Selection: Everton @ 1.83 Not Settled To Win </p> <p>Event info: Nuneaton v Middlesbrough<br> FA Cup Matches<br> 15:00 07/01/2006<br> Market: Win/Draw/Win<br> Selection: Middlesbrough @ 1.12 Not Settled To Win </p> <p>Event info: Stockport v Brentford<br> FA Cup Matches<br> 15:00 07/01/2006<br> Market: Win/Draw/Win<br> Selection: Brentford @ 1.80 Not Settled To Win </p> <p>Event info: Stoke v Tamworth<br> FA Cup Matches<br> 15:00 07/01/2006<br> Market: Win/Draw/Win<br> Selection: Stoke @ 1.25 Not Settled To Win </p> <p>Event info: Torquay v Birmingham<br> FA Cup Matches<br> 15:00 07/01/2006<br> Market: Win/Draw/Win<br> Selection: Birmingham @ 1.40 Not Settled To Win </p> <p>Event info: Alloa v Livingston<br> Scottish FA Cup Matches<br> 15:00 07/01/2006<br> Market: Win/Draw/Win<br> Selection: Livingston @ 1.22 Not Settled To Win </p> <p>Event info: Inverness CT v Ayr<br> Scottish FA Cup Matches<br> 15:00 07/01/2006<br> Market: Win/Draw/Win<br> Selection: Inverness CT @ 1.17 Not Settled To Win </p> <p>I like BARCA, JUVE, BRENTFORD, and VILLA. Will firm up on these in a second. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://milbyarden.blog.co.uk/2006/01/07/bets~447980/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:milbyarden.blog.co.uk,2006-01-07:/2006/01/07/well~447977/MilbyArden2006-01-07T10:48:35+01:002006-01-07T10:48:35+01:00 <p> Bounty Posted - 6 January 2006 17:34<br> --------------------------------------------------------------------------------<br> wallow in self pity much? is that you cold turkey? </p> <p>No, Keira, dearest, it isn't.</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://milbyarden.blog.co.uk/2006/01/07/well~447977/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:milbyarden.blog.co.uk,2006-01-06:/2006/01/06/revenge_ii~445775/MilbyArden2006-01-06T14:55:17+01:002006-01-06T14:55:17+01:00 <p>Well, the reaction to this suggests that I should either:</p> <p>1 - completely ignore wrong done to me;</p> <p>2 - or involve myself with men.</p> <p>I have a marked disinclination to both, to be honest.</p> <p>Besides, I don't know if this is about men and women - it is largely about power.</p> <p>I feel angry about what has happened to me recently because I now have no control over the sitution. Fvcking followed by rejection is fine; daily reminders of it are maddening, but the real rub is the lack of control of previous behaviour. </p> <p>In sum, b1tches behave like b1tches - this is in their nature. They can no more help this than pron stars fucking, footballers footballing, or politicians politiking - it is what they are.</p> <p>The anger is anger about my OWN response. I wonder how long it lasts? Naturally, this manifests it a very real desire to verbally attack the creature who prompted the irksome behaviour.</p> <p>It is really very complicated having a cock. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://milbyarden.blog.co.uk/2006/01/06/revenge_ii~445775/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:milbyarden.blog.co.uk,2006-01-06:/2006/01/06/revenge~445368/MilbyArden2006-01-06T11:54:49+01:002006-01-06T11:54:49+01:00 <p>There is nothing worse than feeling like a mug. It is this feeling, more than any other, which prompts, I think, some catastrophic acts of violence toward women by men.</p> <p>I have repeated the same pattern many times: I'll start banging some lucky girl, I'll temporarily conquer my default antipathy towards the "fairer" sex, it'll go wrong, and I'll want to end them. I mean really just end them. With steel. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://milbyarden.blog.co.uk/2006/01/06/revenge~445368/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:milbyarden.blog.co.uk,2006-01-06:/2006/01/06/on_beauty~445312/MilbyArden2006-01-06T11:25:42+01:002006-01-06T11:25:42+01:00 <p>I have been in idle moments, looking at that face party site.</p> <p>I am trying to decide what makes someone attractive. I shall report back. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://milbyarden.blog.co.uk/2006/01/06/on_beauty~445312/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:milbyarden.blog.co.uk,2006-01-05:/2006/01/05/so~443418/MilbyArden2006-01-05T18:00:40+01:002006-01-05T18:00:40+01:00 <p>I'm looking out over the river. Opposite, I can see M16, to my left M15, and fancy flats on the river. I am lurking on a legal discussion board, because I keep posting about the clunge of some silly creature in whom I unloaded. (I asuume, btw, there is no censorship here, but I shall soon find out.) I am tired, but curiously peaceful. I am going out later. It will be passable. I am wearing trousers from Joseph and a Paul Smith shirt. I look okay. How does one convey intellect, tone, timbre, style, panache, elan with the written word when one is typing nothing into nothingness to no-one? </p> <p>Not. Like.<br> This.<br> I; suppose.</p> <p>That was a bit GM Hopkins? I thought" </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://milbyarden.blog.co.uk/2006/01/05/so~443418/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:milbyarden.blog.co.uk,2006-01-05:/2006/01/05/typing_into_the_ether~443305/MilbyArden2006-01-05T17:30:53+01:002006-01-05T17:30:53+01:00 <p>you don't seem to get my messages anymore.</p> <p>That's okay. I like monologues.</p> <p>so, anyhow, what to say?</p> <p>The vibe has left me. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://milbyarden.blog.co.uk/2006/01/05/typing_into_the_ether~443305/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:milbyarden.blog.co.uk,2005-10-09:/2005/10/09/i_am_left_cold_by_more_death_in_a_countr~225556/MilbyArden2005-10-09T22:35:29+02:002005-10-09T22:35:29+02:00 <p>to which I have never been. </p> <p>Weeks, months, pass by, and more people I have never met, appear on my TV in distress. I felt this about New York, Sri Lanka, New Orleans, Pakistan. </p> <p>I wish I could care; I just don't. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://milbyarden.blog.co.uk/2005/10/09/i_am_left_cold_by_more_death_in_a_countr~225556/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:milbyarden.blog.co.uk,2005-10-09:/2005/10/09/women_on_horses~224831/MilbyArden2005-10-09T16:31:39+02:002005-10-09T16:31:39+02:00 <p>in the countryside. Sun. Wind. Sleepy. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://milbyarden.blog.co.uk/2005/10/09/women_on_horses~224831/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:milbyarden.blog.co.uk,2005-10-05:/2005/10/05/on_dreams~217655/MilbyArden2005-10-05T14:30:18+02:002005-10-05T14:30:18+02:00 <p>I have been having a repeated dream.</p> <p>I am having sex with a woman. Her face keeps morphing, from one girl to another.</p> <p>And then, her bits change into a venus fly trap, and chop my cock off. </p> <p>What does this mean, please? </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://milbyarden.blog.co.uk/2005/10/05/on_dreams~217655/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:milbyarden.blog.co.uk,2005-10-05:/2005/10/05/on_the_problem_of_effort~217579/MilbyArden2005-10-05T13:09:02+02:002005-10-05T13:09:02+02:00 <p>I am 27 years old.</p> <p>I have never wanted anything enough to try.</p> <p>Take women. I aspire, along with many others to get conkers deep into young women on a daily basis - fat ones, thin ones, yellow ones, black ones, green ones (she was drunk).</p> <p>However, a youth spent chasing troubled, podgy self-harming loonies has habituated me to a fast pace:</p> <p>- Life's so hard.<br> - Yeah. Drink some more.<br> - Ok.<br> - Drink some more. Life is really hard.<br> - Ok.<br> - Drink up. You're very special, let's screw.<br> - Ok.</p> <p>Bish, bash, bosh.</p> <p>The allure of fat 19 year slicers has waned. So now, I am locked into endless conversations, long sessions of eye contact, and holding hands; of flirtatious emails and phone calls and texts; of dinners and drinks.</p> <p>I'm crying inside.</p> <p>Do get in touch if you would like to turn me into a real boy. Especially if you have a pleasant flat in North London.</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://milbyarden.blog.co.uk/2005/10/05/on_the_problem_of_effort~217579/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:milbyarden.blog.co.uk,2005-10-05:/2005/10/05/beauty~217069/MilbyArden2005-10-05T01:09:08+02:002005-10-05T01:09:08+02:00 <p>can be in silence. </p> <p>Good night. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://milbyarden.blog.co.uk/2005/10/05/beauty~217069/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:milbyarden.blog.co.uk,2005-10-04:/2005/10/04/i_am_so_cross~215631/MilbyArden2005-10-04T12:17:38+02:002005-10-04T12:17:38+02:00 <p>I have lost my tube pass...</p> <p>These small things real me with such pulsating, red raging rage?</p> <p>How could I possibly be so dense? What kind of incompetent simpleton can't keep hold of his buggering possessions?</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://milbyarden.blog.co.uk/2005/10/04/i_am_so_cross~215631/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:milbyarden.blog.co.uk,2005-10-03:/2005/10/03/beer~215076/MilbyArden2005-10-03T23:48:02+02:002005-10-03T23:48:02+02:00 <p>I love you so, and yet... </p> <p>I had so many good thoughts. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://milbyarden.blog.co.uk/2005/10/03/beer~215076/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:milbyarden.blog.co.uk,2005-10-03:/2005/10/03/we_are_all_equal_here~213607/MilbyArden2005-10-03T10:15:43+02:002005-10-03T10:15:43+02:00 <p>Through the barrier, past the confused, the lost, the foreign, and the dim.</p> <p>The stench of poverty lingers with some: the primark bags, and the cheap trainers, the argos chains.</p> <p>Others are Wayne, in their court suits and siny buckled shoes, proud in their Next checked shirts, not understanding, or caring.</p> <p>Others are Portia, blonde girls with sunglasses on their heads and daddy's plastic in their wallets. I register my own surge of sexual agression, and hide it, quickly. I wait for these girls to get off at Oxford Circus and Green Park to do their PR jobs, timed to last until 5pm or their pregnancies.</p> <p>Off at Victoria, into the bite of October. Past the Willow Tree (1.89 for a pint! with the drunks and the old)... hmmm.... oh: 8.40am... </p> <p>Along Wilton Road, counting the women, regretting the tiny probability that... On to Belgrave Road, past the expensive nursery, (rage rises and falls) and the cheap hotels (£33 a night! Share a room with only 5 rats!)</p> <p>Good morning. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://milbyarden.blog.co.uk/2005/10/03/we_are_all_equal_here~213607/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:milbyarden.blog.co.uk,2005-10-02:/2005/10/02/and_so~213209/MilbyArden2005-10-02T22:49:54+02:002005-10-02T22:49:54+02:00 <p>to bed.</p> <p>Not with Sam.</p> <p>He is, after all, dead. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://milbyarden.blog.co.uk/2005/10/02/and_so~213209/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:milbyarden.blog.co.uk,2005-10-02:/2005/10/02/my_friend_bill~213159/MilbyArden2005-10-02T22:16:45+02:002005-10-02T22:16:45+02:00 <p>I have been out for a drink with my friend Bill. Good pub - no food, no music, no frills, no birds. Makes a man feel manly! I've just been for a crap. </p> <p>He has recently made a special friend of a 39 year old "lady" on the internet. I now know the dire signifcance of ATM (no cash involved).</p> <p>I remember when used to play football with Bill on the playground and we used to talk about dinosaurs.</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://milbyarden.blog.co.uk/2005/10/02/my_friend_bill~213159/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:milbyarden.blog.co.uk,2005-10-02:/2005/10/02/is_addiction_always_such_a_bad_thing~212697/MilbyArden2005-10-02T17:31:12+02:002005-10-02T17:31:12+02:00 <p>I am a feeble creature.</p> <p>I drink too much, I gamble too much, I am nasty to my mum.</p> <p>I start blog entries and I just can't be </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://milbyarden.blog.co.uk/2005/10/02/is_addiction_always_such_a_bad_thing~212697/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:milbyarden.blog.co.uk,2005-10-02:/2005/10/02/hearts_drew~212664/MilbyArden2005-10-02T17:07:28+02:002005-10-02T17:07:28+02:00 <p>How very silly of them. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://milbyarden.blog.co.uk/2005/10/02/hearts_drew~212664/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:milbyarden.blog.co.uk,2005-10-02:/2005/10/02/so_erm~212619/MilbyArden2005-10-02T16:44:14+02:002005-10-02T16:44:14+02:00 <p>What happens now? </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://milbyarden.blog.co.uk/2005/10/02/so_erm~212619/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:milbyarden.blog.co.uk,2005-10-02:/2005/10/02/i_am_drinking~212612/MilbyArden2005-10-02T16:42:36+02:002005-10-02T16:42:36+02:00 <p>Rum.</p> <p>Yet, I do not feel like Hunster S Thompson. </p> <p>It has been a bad weekend. Barcelona drew when they should have won<br> at home to Zaragoza, and Hearts are losing which, in the circumstances is unspeakably rude of them.</p> <p>I am listening to Beethoven.</p> <p>Yet, I am not Alex.</p> <p>My bedroom is beige. I have two large bookcases, a desk from Ikea, my computer from Dell, and a tiny TV from Dixons.</p> <p>It is ok.</p> <p>Tomorrow, I am going on a course, learning how to Project Manage. I like courses. I shall be dressing in smart casual; I think this might mean my shirt which looks a little like a tablecloth in a Texan diner, my blue trousers which make me like a middle-aged middle manager deparately trying to be down wi' the kids.</p> <p>From my bedroom window I can see houses just like mine, mocking Tudor in a repititious way, sadly uncommon back in the day.</p> <p>When I stand on the bed, everything looks the same as before, but beneath me. Suck my balls, Captain.</p> <p>I am reading a biography of Shakespeare by Peter Ackroyd. I prolly won't finish it, but I'll read enough to pretend I have.</p> <p>It is okay.</p> <p>I hope Hearts have scored. Why am I cursed?</p> <p>I am listening to Blur. Perhaps I might procure plenty of poon-tang as a pop-star. I doubt I have the X-Factor.</p> <p>They have scored. But so have Falkirk. I was born under a bad sign.</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://milbyarden.blog.co.uk/2005/10/02/i_am_drinking~212612/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>